Monday, August 28, 2006
! ;6:22 PM &&
one week has past... feel a very refreshing and beginning of me... aha...
quite long no post? o.0 dunno hehe... i dun feel bored at all...cos 1stly i got my euphonium at home waiting for me to play ^^ and also lots of frens to chat wif ...especially my sister... aha... anyway... those ppl tt i have chat wif on msn.. hope u all dun mind...cos i realli too boring... aha... srry if disturb u all... yesturday kong ming come my house ... he was excited bout playing my euphonium...aha... i win him in high pitch note...but he win me in low pitch note cos he tuba player...aha ... we play nba in ps2...saddening...he won me 2 rounds... well well...defence is the best thing in sports...and offence will take care of its own..aha.. walk to kovan bustop and saw berlinda...aha... took 107 to gym ... all of us suddenly no strenght... last week can lift the each side 7.5 kg dumb bell 250 times...yesturday onli 80 times... lousy sia... do running... train legs , body and hands... after gym... was damn tired... LOL.... FREE GIFTS..
OMG...LOL ...TZS ...LOL saw 2 little boys catching fish in longou...
caught a damn big sucker fish...wow... 1st time see... went hougang mall find parents and have dinner wif dem...tts all for yesturday...AHA
lol....today i thought it was o-lvl practical for chem and physics ... until b4 exam start den noe is prelim onli...heng ar... whole day without any lessons at all cos were waiting for exams... noe how to do physics but chem do half way no mood do...hais...failure... i will try harder nxt time...
nv say die ^^ after skool went buy ice cream den went back skool play basketball ...den zg reallise he was late for tuition... den he ask me take cab wif him... he will pay all...o.0? cos i live very near him... den went home slp ...tuition... listen to songs....
i get used to the situation now i am in.... i no longer trap in the circumstances tt i am always in.... thx everyone... especially PSA ppl... u all rox plus... some band mates...aha... i end my words here... pen leak ink alreadi...aha... bb take care all... maybe my nxt post will be quite long ...aha...
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
! ;6:24 PM &&
Yesturday was so excited bout bring my wife home (eupho) but in the end need stock check...hais...den cannot ... maybe mus wait til tmr ... aha... even nv go band... but i can have band at home ^^ yesturday oral... hm..
quite confidence though cos i said quite alot aha... today was tired in class whole day ...den slp for some periods... always had fun in class ...^^
normal acad class are always noisy and lively...nt lyk express classes... so sian one... lol... walk out of class teacher also cannot do anything ^^ go toilet juz walk out ...LOL.... is teacher transparent? o.0
recess went canteen makan cos quite hungry den buy food and sit wif theresa they all ^^ den crap and crap ...LOL... all stupid face look at me eat den very hard to put food into my mouth cos of their staring lol...
after skool went band room wanted borrow eupho but stil cannot den all pieces tt mr chew played b4 was taken out frm file... sian sia... mr png pieces juz sux.... lucky i am nt the batch of members now... tts gd...
walk home alone after tt ...tts all .... YAWNZ...wan to slp sia....
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Monday, August 21, 2006
! ;6:08 PM &&
its skool again after weekend... came to skool wif a fuck face ^^ cos dio scolded in the morning...sian... was crapping lyk mad last nite wif zhi sheng in msn...LOL...CAMBRIDGE OMG... LOL... 2day have fun in class... didnt brg home the test paper mr gave for homework... and got hammer by him..T.T now owe mr tan dunno how mani minutes alreadi..
hais... yesturday went gym wif km,kw,zs,chest and it was worth it... cos i lift the 7.5 kg dumbell 250 times...now arms damn pain... arms getting bigger? aha... lol..every week train ^^ cant even do a stretching or else it will get pain... mus have the mood and be wif the teachers cos onli 59 days to O-lvls... i am damn worried... wonder whether i will retain?ITE? or POLY cos i wan to go poly... hais... i will work hard... but say is easier than done... haas... 2day felt tired... cos cant slp well last nite... after skool went canteen for lunch cos was hungry... ate and walk wif zg and mg to cp... on the way out to skool saw sister and sam den all walk together ... bought mr bean and went home... den at home was damn piss wif my dad... the prawns he use for fishing did nt throw away...damn it..
the smell is worse than dead copse... i take perfume and anyhow spray.. use detol wash the basin...where the plastic was place...damn it... sia...
went to slp and wait for tuition... BB!!!
LOST MY MEMORY
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Saturday, August 19, 2006
! ;11:56 PM &&
i am back^^ its been days since i last post...aha... yesturday punishment by mr tan stil pain until now aha... ate sakae sushi wid 10 frens yesturday
had fun man.... today woke up at 7.30 for juz for a maths test in skool...
the test last frm 8-10.30... maths department bought chocolate for all o-lvl students... was nice...i bought rambutan which planted at home for fren to have a try... aha... they say it was gd... maybe? play basketball in skool... den some guyz frm sec4 shouted nxt team and we played wif dem.... his size was much bigger n taller than me...i cant even guard or offence..is so hard... too bad...i am short...aha... but manage to score 2 pts.. our team won... aha... went skcc and play after tt... also had fun... but was rough... after tt... went serangoon north for a hair cut..cos hair was damn thick... bought lunch and bubble tea den went home... together wif zhi guang cos he also cut wif me... aha... last minute decide to go for concert at vch den went lor... something lyk tt....
tts all for today....
i am truely srry
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
! ;4:45 PM &&
yesturday nv post...cos of nite study until late late and also tuition... stress?maybe... last nite ... nite study...the skool bought tibits and milo for us....aha ... mr tan last nite was back to old self...cos he said it was nt normal skool day... but in skool days...T.T zero tolerence policy.... aha...
last nite after nite study ..went skcc for a nite basketball ...was fun....
today as per normal...recess went play basketball until so wet... dry up after skool went play again...until wet...den went for oral practice wif ms tan... during oral fell aslp...den they laugh at me...ROAR... after oral.. went play basketball again...LOL...3rd time... walk to cp wif belinda,ming guang,chester and zhi sheng... gonna play basketball the fourth time today cos of nite study... mad alreadi... today dunno y i dun feel tired at all...aha... zhi sheng call me take bus... i nv listen to him...
in the end regreted...but ... wad past is past...aha... u cant get it back anyway... well well well....lol.... YEAH...going to skool le... bb basketball...!! hais...how i wish.........
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Monday, August 14, 2006
! ;3:59 PM &&
today got caught by mr neo... say my hair long...issit realli long... i stil plan to after o-lvl den cut... in the end... my hair got cut...T.T... hais... so ugly... oh ya... forgotten tt i got cut or nv cut ... i am always ugly^^ well tts the fact..aha.. went back to class at 8.10 cos zhi sheng hair also got cut... i open the door hard...den realise tt mr tan's face was realli very angry... i remember last week... he wants to start scolding ppl in our class and wake us up cos most of us stil dun have the mood for study... o.0
hais...mr tan changed... well..since he change... i got to change to a betta person soon... i will try my best to giv in to everyone... so tt it wun hurt my frens... even if ppl is wrg... i will take it as my fault... after recess during cme lesson... 2 person fight in class... one got punch in the face 3 times...
den one guy stop dem... how i wish i was the one being hit 3 times ^^ cool huh... lol... den chemistry ms harnie<---dunno hw 2 spell.. period... almost the whole class was nt paying attention ,playing and toking...
den last 2 periods is mr tan period again... he look at me angrily...
he said ms harnie complained tt i nv pay attention in class...y onli me?
T.T hais... maybe i deserve it... after skool...he punish me wif
20 push ups den 20 squat jumps den 20 push ups den continue.. 20 by 20 until he say stop...during my last push ups... my whole body directly hit the ground without anymore energy...hais...now den i understand the pain teachers had...when the class dun pay attention... well... mr tan dun giv chance to ppl anymore...but today was unfair to me...T.T i was nt the one hu nv pay attention the most..at least i got listen abit...hais... went play basketball after skool...but was bulli by them...cos zhi guang say...is the perfect time to bang jonathan since he have no stregth...lol... realli got knock by him... in the end... score onli a few...den was aside motionless... i cant stand it den went cp and went home after tt....
i end my post here...i no stregth to type le... my body , chest, arms and legs are aching now...hais... no fate to do my homework today...hais...
so wad can i do?...T.T i wun let mr tan disapoint in me de....
i am good for nothing...
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Saturday, August 12, 2006
! ;3:37 PM &&
yesturday went pool after skool wif band mates play until 7.30 went home.. today went skool at 8 in the morning to 10 for a maths exam...
the paper was ok... hais... after tt went skcc play basketball ...T.T... share cigarettes wif fren... hais... a packet of 20... all of us share 5... in the end ..i pass the rest to glen... cos he wan buy frm me... i regret buying...
T.T those hu are my frens.. hu hate smokers... hate me too... JUZ FUCK OFF... i am piss wif myself... dun be fren wif me also can... i dun wanna addict ...hais... but i am feeling sad,down and stress den wad can i do? smoke is the onli solution... Hope i will change... i try nt to smoke frm 2day onwards... hais..T.T ... i smoke cos i wanna die early...tts all... nt to act cool... all my frens...pls do me a favour by hating me.... i appreciate it.... hais.... i wanna live in my own world that there will be no one else... i am serious... i am a bad guy.... i cause trouble... i cause hate...i cause everything... hais... sister..i broke my promise... u can also hate me too....all the best everyone...gd luck
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
! ;3:45 PM &&
Finished? Over? i quite long no post? nt sure... aha... well... sleepless nite.. cos of some lame nightmare LOL... PSA ppl... u all noe...LOL...
and also other problems... juz cant sleep well especially last nite... wake up at 3 am... my neck was red all over... den i scratch until 7.45 in the morning... dunno wad sickness is tt... now red red all over... dunno whether can go skool anot... later ppl see le... yeeks... maybe stress?
nt sure... yesturday's ndp wasnt as gd as last year... sian... when the fireworks starts...i fell aslp for 15 mins... sadded sia... once per year onli..
anyway... 2day... neck was red... but got basketball game at paya lebar cc.. den i dun wan ps fren... quarrel wif mom and dad den went out... cos they care for me... when neck red red stil wan go under the sun... they are right? must be... aha... but in the end i went... had fun... lol... stupid coaching and referree... haas... beat chest 7-6 .. was hard... lose zhi sheng 7-5 ? ... nv play wif kong ming... aha... after basketball ... stomach was damn pain... did nt eat any breakfast den went to drink km's F&N grape... aha... in the end went toilet make cake...LOL.... feeling betta after making cake... lol... me , zs and chester took off our shirt.. cos no body there... lol... was fun... DEN THE PERFUME ... dun say betta...
aha... 4 of us went to have lunch.. a cheap one.. $1.90 nasi lemak...
lol... i very detail... o.0 nth to do anyway... oh ya..we all add rice cos 1o cents onli... in the end..all of us cannot finish except kong ming..lol... giv him some ? aha... dun siao siao hor...he is a gd eater and brg him to buffet is not wasting money...lol... chest and km went home 1st den me and zs went heartland mall walk walk.... walk one round... den he stomach pain...lol.. after tt went home... tts all... went home... was so so so the sad....forgotten to buy lunch for younger bro, sis and mom... hais..
failure... in the end...mom went out buy... T.T so srry...
went home download songs ,dota and chat... and blog too.. juz finish my maths homework... happy sia... waiting for tuition teacher to come... tmr know o-lvl results le for chinese... i have confidence in myself... aha...
anyway... wad past is past...it has alreadi happen... there is no turning back... but even if i realli..... i am nt tt inconsiderate... i care for ppls feeling... respect especially... well... i am stil a happy man always... thx to those ppl...
... aha... tis post looks long? .. yah its long ..
i have zi bi zheng le...aha...
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
! ;11:47 PM &&
Hais... today went skool without a bag cos national day celebration... happy birthday Singapore... skool got performance... den some alumni come sing until zao sia... its ok...they did their best... the concert was nice especially nc superstar... congrats the champion....heard the champion was frm band..so mani awards given away... those rangoli was nice... some fans scream lyk siao... mdm chee also scream lyk siao... aha... skool giv us a key chain as souvenier... den after skool... went skcc play basketball... all of them go early as they wanna watch movie except left me and chester stay on to play...after playing ...me and chester chat and walk to cp... take train to kovan and saw zs and km they all ...saw kian wei and 2 gals in train... they all meeting...all nicely dress... after saying bye... i walk home
2day mid of 7th month... betta dun tok rubbish... went home eat vegetarian food... nt bad ... use com awhile den went to slp... cos meeting some band members at 4.30... i slp until 4.25... lucky was nt late cos other theresa and sam were late... but i at least earlier than dem... ^^
hais...problems here and there....when can i ever solve it? hais...
WHY...iszit my fate? T.T srry fren... can u forgive me... i alreadi kneel down... wad u wan... tell me... i let u do anything to me... i dun mind... i juz now realli feel lyk walking to the road and get knock down by the car...
wad for giv me tissue... nah... thx alot of ppl there... i appreciate... but when i look at the fireworks... i get happy... firework rox.... hehe... i get to serve everyone... aha... thought i was full.. hais... hungry until now.. at least i see my fren eat happily ...i happy le... aha... i shouldnt have bought bear and i misunderstood gavin... hais... zs allow u ... and i didnt noe... i am realli srry... friday...u wait for me... i bring a chopper for u.. do wad u wan lar... i wanna quit skool alreadi... i realli had enough since May.... fuck up lar... went home after a fucking nite.... DUI BU QI everyone....T.T i will change to be a betta person de.... thx zhiguang ,kongming,zhi sheng,gavin,kian wei,jeremy,venessa,gina,man ting, doreen,daphne,jasmine,samantha,theresa,yue an,victor, alina,jamie
and linda... all thx... nitez everyone... takecare ... all the best...
hais.... i apologise one more time to those tt i have cause trouble...
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! ;1:54 PM &&
sian...yesturday dad was so fucking piss off ...dunno y... come back home den anyhow scold ppl... lucky i help my family def ...i be the scape goat...
aha... dun wan him to hurt anyone especially my mom...^^ yesturday was lyk almost whole day free except EL period ... oral practice for 3 periods... after skool directly went home... tuition homework do halfway den karna scolded by tt knn tuition teacher hu always call me useless...
nabei... i prove him wrg... den at nite... hais... knn... dun always do things tt i dunno lar... now i have another problem to worried le lar... nvm... well ... i maybe gonna let tis blog rot all the way... cos i wanna study well ... i wan prove everyone wrong... i wan to choose course that i wan and not let course choose me... or else i wun find a gd job nxt time...
dun wanna get look down... gonna chiong my art tis few days.... i will zhen guang for dad and mom for taking care of me so hard.... when they born out a useless bastard... jia you! all the best to u ppl.... aha.... will try to post bah... at the same time also let it rot... aha... take care everyone...
aha...STUDY STUDY STUDY!
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
! ;9:46 PM &&
2day investiture... lots of alumni and seniors came and support us...
reach skool at 8... den everyone giv me a wierd look cos of my attire...
mdm yeo tis morning den type out the speech... den i last minute read...
2day was a memorable day... i was given euphonium advicer and staff sageant <--dunno how to spell ... as my rank... aha... best sec 2 goes to...
its ok tt i did nt get best sec5... cos victor was older than me and he deserve it... hais... 2day play ross roy...wasnt gd... last performance stil lyk tt... its ok... i think i wun be coming back band anymore until after
o-lvl... i still luv u all guyz... all the best to u and the band... hope u all get gold wif honour for nxt year syf... i will be there supporting u all...
i will be there at ur syf... i will miss u all de... after investiture wif all the speech and certificate presenting... went to band room wif alumni and my senior... he play euphonium indeed lyk shit... he was the one hu scold me play lyk shit when i was sec 2...aha... we had fun man... all my seniors rox... lol... pamela ...nv change at all... stil the same... siao kia..
hack care lar... the skool closing at 1.30 den srry seniors cos we all got to chase u all out of band room cos the skool auntie keep kbkb... we quickly pack up things in canteen and went off le...wanted to eat in cp but too mani ppl alreadi...went hougang mall eat mcdonald den went to play pool... 1st 2 hour i have stregth and form to play..until the 3rd hour..
body was feeling tired and down... lose to 3 gals...forgot hu le... den lose all the way... no stregth... i am srry...pls dun leave me...<---see
after tt they buy alcohol den went to hougang mall eat...i forgot wad happen during tt time...i was realli dizzy... they all accompany me to hougang station and i went home le... dad come fetch me at kovan...
thx for today everyone... maybe tts the last band outing wif u guyz...
i got to buck up my studies... or else i retain... but retain is also a gd idea..
i can help u all for SYF...i cant bear to leave U all.... tts my day...use com awhile den i offline...until den i noe tt stupid zg bluff me time and time again.... hais...at least twice per week...hais.... anyway...
i am srry... pls...bb nitez ppl...take care and slp well...muacks...
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! ;12:14 AM &&
so happy...common test over...except for A maths ppl... aha... after skool promise wanted to accompany u all go eat...in the end... hais srry...
But anyway... i realli have no appetite... i am very srry.. after skool went skcc play bball... play awhile den whole body feel lyk fainting... hais...
my body is born weak...y iszit so?... T.T i cant be as healthy as ppl...
den sit beside see dem play...but hands itchy... den i pull myself together
and play... i hack care about the pain... cos i wanna play... after they stop playing... we went cp and eat... i eat noodle... cos cant eat rice or my throat will get painful... after tt...walk alone to skool... wanted to faint on the way... realli cant make it... but its my last practice le...and i promise lots of ppl i will be going... so i mus do it... went to band room... air con..
feeling betta...den take out my eupho and play... woohoo...so happy...
even though the full band was small band..but at least we all enjoy rite?
after band ... went to hall help them set up chairs... tmr is a big day...
hope tmr will be a very sucessful one... so mani seniors and alumni coming.... and i am giving speech... but nvm...its my last time... i rather giv my best or else there will be no more chance alreadi... well... tmr gonna wake up early cos suddenly last minute plan said that we will be playing... so gonna go for rehersal...aha... last time... and i will be done wif band... i wun go anymore...until after O-lvls... i luv u all.... god bless...
feeling lyk crying...so touching...hais...
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
! ;7:39 PM &&
i am always trying to make myself happy...but... dun tok bout tt 1st...
today was normal day... and i realise my class got thieft... hu was trying to steal my frens things... damn it... i can't afford to see my frens things got stolen...nvm ... we shall wait ... if i caught him red handed..i sure make him admit...wonder y i today so hungry...trying to fill up my stomach...but juz cant ..lol.. me and kong ming 2day eat quite alot..^^
but stil... aha... today have maths test... was hard ? even a maths pro lyk me stil find it difficult? lol..jkjk...i bhb... the test end at 1.50 den directly when to hod outside there for oral practice...frm 2-3 plus... ms tan said my reading was nt bad but picture description juz sux big time...
After oral ... at least i felt happy... i get to see u... i wun ask for much...
i am alreadi satisfied le...
Sometimes dunno whether i am selfish anot... nv care a thoughts for ppls feeling?...hais...
Went to skcc play basketball after skool... i nv go band cos i have a feeling tt i am uninvited... at skcc... got 2 ppl nearly fight..den saw som1 take phone lyk calling ppl down... but did nt see after tt...cos we went to prime ..the place so call bai mei... play basketball... had fun... i jump and run.. dunno whether will get mang cang yan anot... cos i was full
until around 5... lol... we play until fun den kian wei.. pulled my shirt and 2 buttons drop off... i piss and start to scold him.. vulgar..cos he play too rough le... hais.. after sometimes... i realise tt i am wrg... why did i scold him since he was one of us...psa..brothers rite?... hais.. kian wei i am scincerely srry...u all sure been thinking y my attitude is lyk tt... lemme tell u...i have attitude problem....i get frustrated easily... treat me as a mad dog barking... srry need me kneel down? Sometimes i realise... i shouldnt belong to the group...i am realli srry... i wan to be happy... but i cant... especially... hais... should i juz walk away frm ___ ? Even thought it hurts me alot...F4
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
! ;9:32 PM &&
I realli had enough... PLS... stop... i wish i kill myself...its lyk theres an angel and devil in my mind ... whenever i wan to do something tt i realli would wan to do... something bad would juz pop out frm my mind... hais
tis kind of feeling juz wun stop...its nt tt i dun wan... is lyk theres an devil stopping me frm doing wad i wan.... i get stress day by day... i wish i am a vegetation human... den wun have so much problems le...
hais...wad a wierd mind i have... ITS HAPPENING EVERYTIME..T.T!!!
Everytime i see the drawing .... i felt so happy... at least i had done something... I ___ ___ but ... hais... this fucking mind of mine...
today had english test... was so glad tt its so easy to do... ^^ ....
nth fuck happen 2day... went to tuition... at 5... meet zs at hougang plaza coffee shop eat.... reach skool around 6.20 ... study until 7.30 den went play nite basketball in skool... hais... did something wrg....
i juz wun change...tts y... reach home... grandma admitted to hospital again... i wish i had nt been born... especially nt come into nchs... the fucking skool....
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