Friday, September 29, 2006
! ;6:36 PM &&
hm...125 hours... will keep reminding myself... recently been eating lolipop..a substitution for a fucking tobacco... its true... no one wans to be a fren wif a smoker... i hope i can find som1 to chat wif... but i dun wanna disturb the person... now my sister exam coming... buzy too... den i will be lonely... cos guys dun realli chat well... so i am damn boring... should i msg and disturb ppl? nah...betta be considerate... at home... always lock up in room listening to songs and look at the ceiling... so boring...
den always thought of msging ppl...ROARS... but... will i irritate?
2day brought all the art work... den mani things sia... 3rd period after mr tan period... we went art room all the way do art until around 2.45...
went cp wif zs and kw to meet up wif alina,hong xi,linda and jamie...
sit at one corner of cp... chat,study and play poker cards... borrow alina's mp3 and listen... buy lolipop for jamie and hong xi...lol... actualli wan buy for myself one...but nvm lar ^^ buy bob dog sweet ...haas...
went home around 5 .... but saw sister,sam and yue an in cp... haas....
tiring day...chiong art until lack of slp... gd luck for those having end of year exams... all the best and gd luck...
2 more days... tmr basketballing...dunno whether fishing or swimming...
i am stil alone in the end....y is tis so?
Thursday, September 28, 2006
! ;2:46 PM &&
i dunno whether i am doing the right thing by disturbing ppl n msg ppl.... i am juz very sian...so find ppl to tok mah...i luv to chat alot..tts all... i am realli srry bout tt...maybe in ur mind .. u may tink i am irritating.... hope ya dun mind... ^^ its the 100th hours i nv smoke... keep having the urge to smoke but i need the willpower so i juz REN... i kept biting my fingers or find things to eat... cos mouth will feel itchy... whenever i see ppl smoke...i juz stand there and look... but these few days... i feel betta liao.. the urge wasnt as much liao... n fucker... i've alreadi giv in and be kind to u... u dun step over me... i hate being used by ppl... anyway... screwed up my whole life... why? mr tan was right... without dreams... we realli can do nth... hais... wasted so mani years... the onli problem is to aim for the goal of our dreams... T.T sob... well...hais...tmr needa hand up art course work le... i am almost done wif it... i am quite satisfied wif the art design i have done.. tmr going MOE to hand in... today i left onli 4 hours at home to do the touch-up and finish..2nite gonna get those plastic cover to wrap up...ppl jiayou!..finish up the art and get gd grade... i dunno y my guts is getting bigger n bigger... i do illegal things .. i dare to challenge ppl ... o.0 well well... 2day juz had a fight wif lie yao... we were gd frens .. but in toilet i challenge him for a fight... juz to train... he punch my jaw damn hard... even a crack sound can be heard...den punch my ribs...a real fight but i onli manage to punch his chest once... i gonna train betta for self-defence and also can help my frens when they in trouble... i shake hands wif lie yao after the fight.. i got bruises on my hands... den rib cage damn pain... but its worth fighting...anyway... we were onli training... skip english lesson go art room do art...tts my day... hais... the 100th hour i nv touch tobacco and i am writing to remember... and 4 more days... my fren gtg... but i realli hope nth happen to him... juz feeling sad... T-_._-T
Monday, September 25, 2006
! ;3:42 PM &&
hais.... why why? all his brothers and dear frens will miss him... hm...i wun write out his name... cos later ppl come whack me... he join my class since we were sec 3 and we were frens for 3 years... he used to bulli me..^^ but its alrite... we help each other in mani ways through sec 3 , 4 and 5 ... we went fishing together... he gave me cigarette and smoke togethers... hais... cant forget the time... but y things turn out to be lyk tis... hais... i dunno whether if i can see him again... but i hope will...he stil has his o-lvl ... his future cannot be destroy ... and he is 18 ...hais...
he has a kind soul.... when we got trouble in fights or wad...he will offer to help... but no matter wad... i try to help wad i can even bailing out wif money...i also dun mind... i wan all my frens to have bright future...
y was he so foolish and do it without tinking...
today... saddening day... no mood for anything....
anyway..... but all the best...tts wad i can say...hais...
Sunday, September 24, 2006
! ;11:14 AM &&
yesturday had a long and fun day sia... morning woke up early for basketball at skcc... damn tired... nabei...lie yao say until i am tt kind of person...lol? nvm... we had fun at basketball... i was in top form in shooting but lousy form at center position... got block ... but i burn ppl .. non-stop..^^ trash kong ming in abc... wif 2 rounds finish and he stil half way through 1st round ...WAHAHA... frm 9 play until 11.30... damn exhausted... went accompany chest and lie yao eat lunch but me and zs nv eat... i went interchange buy lunch for mom den zs eat there so i have to wait him... after tt... i went home...he stay there and wait for alina they all... around 2.30.. kw,km and jer come my house play... come snatch com frm me... den i went to slp... let them play lor... had fun too... at nite... we went kovan eat den do something bad sia... everything is juz free...dun need pay money...^^ lol... eat dinner den take 82 to punggol around chester house there... there... we get free gifts again... LOL...
23/9/06...psa free gifts day...lol... we had candles, explosive powder, lighter and those fireworks thingy... we play wif fire ... den carve out those words tt we wan... zs carve him and alina den kian wei and linda... for me...last year i did... but tis year ... i juz carve out i love u...lol....
we all took off our shirt and play at void deck... we buy lionger and
pop-pop ... haas... we were wild tt time... me,zs,chest,kw,jer,gavin,km
7 of us tis year... zg went for lan... ming guang cant come and tt yuchang...forget bout him... always ps... we play wild until 12... den the rubbish pick up some cos we made the whole place dirty... den i wanted to keep the place clean... but zs tell me... u clean liao..the cleaners later no job....LOL... den i clean some den left quite alot of rubbish throw around... jeremy make 3 rockets... but fail 2... den wif our effort which was the grand finale... the fireworks wif lots of explosive ... after lighting..
we all ran away...quite far... its was damn nice.... i even had the video... took lots of pics too... took 136 home... i nv remember 23/9/06...haas..
reach home around 12.30 am midnite...haas.... heavens will...i realli
hope...
Friday, September 15, 2006
! ;11:29 PM &&
2day was a good day as the weather been very cooling... rain and rain...had e maths and geog... i noe how to do but no time for my last 4 question.. i think i lose 20 over marks... geog... quite happy... i studied tourism and tourism came out...LUCKY... cos i nv study others..LOL
lazy mah... recess went 3G burrow protractor frm jamie... thx granddaughter... i am her ah gong...haas... actualli is accompany zs and kw cos ...lol... ppl should noe... saw my sister... she see me lyk see jay chou liddat...LOL... jkjk..bhb... so happy and high... cos i recently neglected her cos of my studying...hopes she wun get lonely... dunno y ppl ask me whether i got go band when i am nt a band member anymore?
haas... after skool again... accompany zs and kw to 3F i crap alot sia...
1st time see me so high rite? WOOTS...lol...tts all... after skool go play basketball until around 7 den climb skool side gate out... went home... slack for 2day...cos friday den tmr morning mus wake up and do art and study liao.... bb
hais...sadded sia... my prelims 1st few papers.... sure buang one... hais..
cos... if is not difficult den is not enough time for me to do... e maths clever wad fuck? my time management sux... knn... angry and piss wif myself... for nt touching any books frm january to june... after june holiday den i start serious studying... realli dun have the mood for o-lvl... cos i put all my full effort on n-lvl alreadi... hais... very sad... dad actualli wan buy ipod nano for me... den my results... do i stil have the face to ask him buy? ...i betta dun... continue study and prove my parents wrg... hais.. i am the worst in the entire yap family... all my relative are express, jcs, graduate or university one...den left me... the onli good for nothing in normal acad... hais... should i juz quit skool and stop wasting my parents money... my tuition fees all...so wad if my dad have money... i also cant spend it juz lyk tt... i realli ffeeeelll lyk quiting skool... i see my frens all betta than me... even CCA frens... no face to see them... hais... i cant stand the stress anymore...MY SCIENCE...buang... my art ...stil chionging... T.T hais... POLY,ITE,RETAIN,QUIT SKOOL? i have onli four choice... but i will choose the 1st choice... at the rate i am going now..
i think the last 3 is suitable for me... go out work and support myself?
i dunno y... recently felt so stress and sad... den my smoking urge is back to haunt me... i keep thinking of cigarette... but i mus REN... hais...
SAD SAD SAD.... i am srry to all my frens and ppl whom i noe... ESPECIALLY my beloved parents... wasted 17 years...T.T... and i hate ppl hu lyk to spread rumours... and anyhow tok rubbish... say sommore lar... i sure hate those hu tok kok MY WHOLE AND ENTIRE LIFE...
Sunday, September 10, 2006
! ;10:08 PM &&
time to study ler... stop tinking and time to work hard...haas... say is easier than done... hais... wake up do tuition maths homework... went ah ma house eat den watch tv til around 5 den went out to gym wif jeremy,zs and km...LOL FREE GIFTS? dun realli think it is... flying ___ ? haas...1st time zhi sheng so genourous...LOL... went hg wif km to popular buy double sided tape... go find parents after tt... eat liao den supermarket...
dad went fishing caught 3 fishes...quite big... but i nv go wif him... tts all ... dun realli tink parents let me use com le bah... i tink maybe tis is the last post? b4 exams.... after prelims den i post bah... haas... skool reopen le... happy skooling everyone...tag me more...HAAS...enjoy and all the best to everyone^^
! ;12:44 AM &&
o.0 woke up late around 12.30 den mom nag until my ear drum spoil again.... told her i going out for pool den NIAM NIAM NIAM non-stop...roars...REN... my my own gd...^^ do some maths sums...quite alot bah..
cook maggee mee and eat...no buy mah... went out to pool wif dem... i very sad wif myself sia...pool skill deprove until so lousy...T.T its ok .. haa
total got me , sister,sam,vic,joe,manting,km,renjie and no more rite? at the pool... after tt accompany few of them to hougang mrt... dun wan pool ...cos so lousy... lyk shit... on the way saw chester... den after they meet up... saw my senior eugene... haas..he looks cool... he keep advicing me to study...i listen to him... den after they all go... zhi sheng ,kian wei join me and chester... we walk around pasa malam.. den sister called and ask me buy food up for them... i did... crappin along the way wif stick, rubber and JEI...lol... hope they nv see... haas... went for pool again...
saw chuan rong sia... den challenge him...WOOTS... won him and he call me pro... saw zg den bear and land again...LOL ...he was a happy man.. sia... good luck to him ... chiong home and went tampines mall wif relatives... went eat buffet at pariss den chat wif my cousin ... about poly courses...wad a day i have... am i feeling down or happy? ...
Friday, September 08, 2006
! ;8:50 PM &&
today woke up damn early cos long time no go punggol end... told them all meet 10 at bustop...ming guang came my house in the end... cos i will be brging lots of things... he help me carry some of the things ...went kovan market buy prawns... the uncle sell me 1 kg so cheap ^^ and gd prawns... took bus to punggol end... reach there... so happy cos onli 1 person fishing...den we hav place alreadi...haas ... help them tied hook and set up cos they dunno... in the morning onli 5 of us... me,chester,gavin,kong ming and ming guang.... zhi sheng and kian wei needa wait for 3 gals..Gavin keep asking whether i have viceroy menthol light anot.. ask me go and buy... haas... but i dit nt buy...he have the urge to smoke sia...after waiting for some time without any fish... i took off my shirt and jump into the sea and swim...kong ming ,chester and gavin follow after tt....ming guang help us look after the rods... the water was much more dirty than sentosa one...haas... had sunburned again.... hv heal finish den come again ...o.0 its ok lar... after swimming.. we 5 were hungry cos zhi sheng was damn late....den we had to wait for our chicken rice for so long...
the biscuit i brought...they all steal away frm me...den in the end i eat nth...nvm...as long as my frens are happy jiu ok le... i never wear shirt all the way... until the gals came...den kian wei and zs call me to wear.... i dun mind anyway... haas... the sun is so strong...wear shirt is a waste... but lucky sia... now whole body as red as chilli... ANYWAY...HU THE HELL IS MRS LAND... kian wei...haas... u dun anyhow say... she will sad de... after all came... there were a total of 10 ppl...me,kongming,chester,gavin,ming guang,zhi sheng,kian wei, jamie,linda and alina....kian wei and the gals brought drinks for us... thx ar... we eat damn fast cos all was hungry.... they wanted to move to a very quiet place.... den keep saying me and ____ den very pai seh...haas...my motive come punggol end is to shout out loud... as wad jamie teach me... onli chester caught fish...the rest of us caught nth...
2 couples... there... we all dun disturb... when always they say me... they will look at ___ make me and her pai seh.... dots...hope she wun mind...
5 of them all go explore around those places den found a fish farm..den i walk to a very far place alone... wanna shout and think of those sad memories... i fish there alone... den jamie walk to me and tok to me... i lie to her i am nt sad...haas... i force a laugh .... b4 she came... i nearly cry out...cos no one was there... thx alot for the concern... but i am srry...
after thinking and thinking... i shout and felt so relieve... i join back the group... suddenly ..jamie cried out in one corner... she cry becos she cant do anything to help a fren and cause so much trouble on THAT day...
alina and linda try to console her... i was wif kong ming they all...den they walk to me... tell me... jonathan... go and console her... i stun sia...
i try lor... i walk to her alone... i am nt those ppl hu realli noe how to console ppl... den i use some logical one bah... in the end... she ok le...
whew..!! gan jiong sia... i had things prepared...i brought marker pen..
we all calve our name on the floor .... haas... no one can find it...
den 6.15 .. kong ming , chester , ming guang , gavin got to go... i should have go wif dem sia...haas... left me , zhi sheng , kian wei, jamie , linda and alina... me, zs and jamie were challenging each other hu can cast the rod furthest...LOL....crapping all over..den i lose? WTH.... i always win one... den today..lol its ok... around 6.45 we pack our things and went home.... PLS STOP ANYHOW TOK RUBBISH OR SPREADING RUMOURS.... WHOMEVER IT IS.... haas....
erm... walk wif 5 of them to bustop and take 82 home ... thx everyone for today... thx brothers and the 3 gals... and especially to those tt console me...haas...good day.... being rich is no fucking big deal.... i realise.. i prefer being wild lyk those village and kampung bois... they are free and lively without any sadness or problems.... living in atap houses are betta sia... i realise... but i stil cant forget wad happen.....months ago.... DUN FUCKING TOK KOK....BUAY SONG ME COME TELL ME...
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
! ;11:43 PM &&
went to skool around 8 for chem lessons... after chem...went band room cos whole day free and nth to do... waiting for jankins arrival... den in the afternoon... jankin brought his army fren along... cos his fren was juz coming skool for a lunch cos cheap mah... later going up band room.. jankin dun wan pang seh his fren den brg his fren along ... mr png always welcome alumni...juz becos we did nt tell him... he chase jankin and his fren away... nabei... we even told some band members tt he is coming...den when they were outside... mr png scold the band... say wad... becareful of strangers...den say jankin molester? he was alumni sia...
for wad security purposes... lol... go kam lar... den i went in... he even say...hu the fuck are they to come in? lol? i very pissed by den... in the morning he go touch yun jie hair... WAH LAU... cos yun jie help him mark theory paper...den he sayang her... TAKE chance to touch her .. i think... den also say... BAND SO MANI CHIO BU... WAD IF THEY MOLEST THEM? ...LOL WTF? he even notice band got chio bu ar?
aiyah...he abit ap sia... lyk to hao lian... CHEW JUZ ROX
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
! ;11:58 PM &&
today wanted to go skool den... dio fake sia... no lesson... stupid sia...dio fake by fren...ROARS!! wear uniform for nth... meet up wif zs den went km house use com...aha... the baby was so cute... went home at around 1.30 ... cos 3 got tuition so needa rest...den zhi guang came... my house play... i dun need to slp liao... recent sun burn cos my body to feel uncomfortable... damn it man... pain all over.... skin coming off soon...
after tuition ..went gym at 5 wif jeremy,zhi sheng, and kong ming... FREE GIFTS...OMG... FLYING MILO...OMG...LOL... damn it... SO FUNNY
CHECK STOCK...lol... train alot... lift dumb bell all tis... haha... muscles getting bigger...aha... went home and have dinner after tt...NITEZ... going for band tmr cos jankin will be going...aha
Monday, September 04, 2006
! ;6:19 PM &&
wow..time passed so fast ...yesturday morning need to wake up early and meet at cp by 8.30 but in the end i woke up at 8.45... around 9.25 den i reach cp...lucky sylvia,sam and theresa were waiting for yue an but she came earlier than me...was damn tired... reach escape around 10.15 ...sylvia's mom was so pissed off by the workers for chargin 2 xtra adults and 1 children in her credit card...den her mom venge anger on sylvia...
o.0 scary...went in to wild wild wet play around total got 6 of us... me, sister, sam, yue an , sylvia and her sister... they say wanna play until www close down den worth it...aha... i anything lor... the sun was so strong... i did nt wear shirt ...den they had those singlet and swim suit .... so the sun was burning my skin and caught cold cos water was cold sometimes...
took mani different rides.. got water lap , ular lar. and samsung, lazy pool and tsunami...lazy pool we had at least 10 rounds...aha...... the best tt i lyk was samsung...was damn damn exciting even though scary...
i lyk it man..den the ular-lar sit dunno around 5 times liao...den sylvia sister damn hyper... wanna sit non-stop... i dun mind sitting but need climb steps around 3 storey lyk tt...i am old liao leh... the sun was burning and burning my skin... play until around 6.45 den went bath...
i bath and waited for them outside toilet for 15 mins bah... after the fun at www... i realise my whole body was red and tanned... i received so mani miss call... frm they...cannot blame me leh... my bag in locker..den victor come and giv me a fuck face...say wad...pang seh him... nabei lar..
i was very du lan by then... in the morning i call him...den no on hp... blame me in the end... but we peace after tt... sam , sylvia and theresa were angry also bah...maybe? mus thx sylvia for helping me buy chicken rice... ROARS!!!...was damn pissed off.... after dinner went in chalet and have fun... den went to play pool... som ppl were pissed off...cos unwelcomed ppl came... when they did nt comfirm whether they wanna come anot... i dunno bout tt... haas... LOL...tt victor brought 5 days clothing when there are onli 2 nites... heex... went to play arcade and pool until 10+ lyk tt... was nt very on form... hit so mani black balls in... lol...
kong ming's prediction was rite...ahas... win some but lose more than win..victor especially today win me so mani times BECOS OF... dun wan to say...aha... went back chalet...sylvia's bro and his galfren came... ^^
went cheers buy some alcohol... but theresa and sylvia dun allow me..T.T
cos whenever i drink... there will always be quarrel... i am lousy drinker?
in the end...i bought coffee... its ok... they stop me was for my own gd..
but i drank some of victors alcohol in the end...aha... face was damn red onli...nv drunk... went to slp... i was damn tired so i snored... ahaas...
aunty snored too... victor slp wif me equal lyk fighting...lol... pull blanket , snatch pillow... but i manage to snatch the whole BED ...LOL
I WON... keep waking up in the middle of nite...srry everyone for disturbing... morning went biking wif victor and sylvia at pasir ris park... we cycle to red house ...not punggol one... the haunted house too...
den cycle for 2 hours in pasir ris park... after cycle... i have no mood for anymore fun le... went back chalet ..pack up and went home... some of them will stil stay on for one more day and go www again... cos i felt guilty and mom was waiting to giv me a hard scolding at home...hais...
had a fun time wif u all guys... thx for chalet...T^.^T
Saturday, September 02, 2006
! ;6:05 PM &&
Happy birthday dad....aha.... fork out money wif siblings ...i pay the most... but nvm lar...stil got tonnes of saving at home... waiting for 6.30 to go to serangoon country club jumbo seafood restaurant... aha ... so expensive... eat le also pain pain cos my money sia...nvm its worth it cos its my dad...aha... dun tok bout tt 1st...Morning woke up at 8.15 cos need to reach skcc by 9.. basketball wif frens...take train den saw yun jie and her group of frens at cp aha... i was the earliest to reach skcc...^^ den saw ah bek and ah ma doing taiji...
wait and wait until they come... den got ball..aha... was damn on form today...top scorer... hehex ... den berlinda and chest came... today lots of ppl come sia... aha... went kfc eat after tt... at last... i have about 2 months nv eat kfc le... but eat the o.r fillet fish...save money^^
went home use com...waiting for celebrating dads birthday.... aha... got LOBSTER TO EAT...YEAH!!!
Friday, September 01, 2006
! ;11:33 PM &&
aha...thought today was a boring day without anything to do... den last nite kian wei told me he and zs wan come my house...so happy sia... got ppl accompany me... reahc my house around 12.45 when i was palying euphonium... zs play eupho so funny ^^ aha... crap and have fun in my house den disturb until mom cos she was taking a nap... srry bout tt mom...^^ we were planning to go punggol end wif alina,hong xi, jamie and alina and dunno hu else...^^ but in the end...we walk to alina's house cos she live quite near me...aha.. although house was smaller than mine...but she was much more richer ^^ 4 computers ..omg all very fast and gd de... no television BUT MOVIE THEATER SYSTEM..... laus...nice sia... aha... on the way... keep STICK,RUBBER AND DI!!...lol...zs and kw...u both should noe...quite fun even did nt go punggol end...^^
those gals made cookies for us... i had a fun day ... looking forward to tmrs basketball at skcc and chalet^^ aha...bb
